Goodbye New York, Hello Wales

You might be a little confused by this title. It only seems like 5 minutes ago that I was saying my goodbyes and heading away for a 3 month trip. However, a month passed and I’ve been back in the UK for a month now, wondering where my next adventure will be.

You’re probably, was she fired? No I wasn’t. I quit working at the summer camp and booked a flight home for the next day. Camp life isn’t easy and I wasn’t prepared enough for it. 

Before I left I thought all I ever wanted was to travel the world and it turns out, it isn’t for me. I missed the familiarity of home, the little things in life that made me comfortable and mostly, I missed who I was before I went to camp. 

Camp was ruining me emotionally, I was caring for the same children all day, everyday. Slowly I began to feel very suffocated and isolated in the camp bubble. Camp bubble? What is that, you may think. It’s like living, working, breathing and existing in the smallest village ever and never being allowed to leave (except for a 24 hour period each week on my day off). 

From the minute I arrived at camp I knew there was something I didn’t like, I couldn’t describe it but I knew that it wasn’t for me but I gave it a shot, a really good go actually. 

I had everything thrown at me during my time in the states and I powered through until I had enough. I reached a point where I couldn’t be bothered to get out of bed in the morning. I was emotionally and psychically tired every single day and my anxiety was reaching an all time low. I was crashing and knew I had to come home. 

I don’t regret coming back to the UK, not a single bit. I do miss the little family I made at camp with all my friends but I don’t miss anything else. I don’t miss the children, the job or the camp itself at all. When I was at camp I missed everything and everyone and it consumed me. 

I feel like a failure. I’m not one to give up on anything ever, I took a lot for me to decide to leave but I knew it was best for me. So now I am home and looking forward to my many adventures. Although for now I don’t want to leave Wales but my experience hasn’t frightened me from wanting to do more travelling. Perhaps my trips will be short time period but I’ll still do them. 

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With love, Beth x 

 

 

 

Before I Die…

I read a book a few months ago called All The Bright Things. In this book the characters were listing the things they wanted to do, achieve or create before they die and it inspired me to write about the things I want to do before I do (a long time away I hope so plenty of time to get through my list!). So, let’s jump straight in shall we. 

Before I die I want to…

  • Swim with dolphins. 
  • Go to Hawaii. 
  • Own a home (or two if I’m lucky enough). 
  • Be my own boss. 
  • Have children and raise them in a two parent home. 
  • Go to Italy and make my own pizza (I know I can do this anywhere but.. Italy right?). 
  • Be given the type of love only a parent can get. 
  • Marry my best friend.
  • Build a tree house. 
  • Visit the Great Barrier Reef. 
  • Visit more of the UK. 
  • Go and visit Jess in Canada. 
  • Work abroad for a year. 
  • Own a high end bag. 
  • Take a trip with just my brothers (probably too wishful). 
  • Witness a miracle.
  • Never have to worry about money. 
  • Go on a safari. 

Across the years I’ll probably accomplish some of these things and continue to add more. This is just the start of my very long journey. How about you guys write your own list of things to do, achieve or create before you die!

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Book Review: When We Collided

I recently come across a new author to me, named Emery Lord. I purchase two of three books that she has published, When We Collided was the first I read. 
I was in the mood to read lovey-dovey, romantic novels and after reading the first chapter of both books and the back of the book, I knew that this would be a good read. Let’s get to the point, it didn’t fail me & I really enjoyed this book. 
Jonah and his family had experienced the dreadful loss of his father and never thought he would feel normal again. Vivi had moved to his home town for the summer with her artist mother in hopes to start experiencing the world in a way she’s always wanted too, happy. Never did they both know that, during the summer they would experience their first love that consumed them. 

It’s been months that I have come across a book that I’ve become obsessed with. This one really did it for me, I read this during the summer when I had been missing Matt so much and it just helped me to relive the happy memories and all of the loving feelings I have for him.

I especially liked that the stigma of mental health and death hadn’t been ignored and instead, totally emphasised in the most powerful and thoughtful way. Emery hadn’t ignored the fact that people have difficulties regardless of what they are and she noticed that all problems and life changing events should be recognised. 

The story was beautiful and full of love between two teenagers that eventually realised how to love themselves again. 

With love, Beth x 

Recent Struggle: Body Confidence 

Recently I have gained a little more weight than ever before. In fact, whilst writing this (in advance since I’m now in America) I’m at the biggest weight I have ever been and I’m definitely feeling less confident. I’m still healthy and happy-ish but I’m not comfortable at all. 

Now, most of you will be sat at your screens or phones thinking “stop complaining and do something about it”. You’re right yes, I probably should do and I will be whilst away. However, I realised throughout this experience that even though I’ve gained weight and I’m not as small as I used to be, this does not determine my worth or happiness. 

I’ve never been the skinniest of girls, ever. That’s okay and I’m not wanting to lose weight to be skinny, I’m wanting to lose weight to feel comfortable and happy in my own skin. 

My issue is that, when I’m happy I celebrate with eating. When I’m sad, I eat. It’s just who I am and it’s how my friends, family and I do things. I don’t have to stop doing this I just have to make better choices. That’s why, when I’m away this summer I’ve decided to pick healthier options which may be difficult since I’m in the country with the most fatty foods ever. Instead of having a steak with chips, onion rings and a dessert. I’ll pick a steak with a salad (which won’t be difficult since I enjoy it). I’ll pick options that are lower in calories but not only my food choices, but to exercise more which won’t be difficult since I’ll be running around all day with children and enjoying it. 

Perhaps, hopefully when I return I can update you on whether 1. I’ve lost weight and feel happy about it or 2. Just accept it’s who I am and I like cake. 

With love, 

Beth x 

What’s In My Carry On

Travelling isn’t easy at all and I like to know I’m organised and prepared for my trip. However, this time I headed on my adventure alone, without my parents or Matt to care for me so I was extra organised this time. I decided to go ahead and pack check a suitcase in and take a carry on since I was on a long-haul flight and I had a layover in Madrid for 2 and a half hours. I wanted to make sure that I packed everything that I needed to keep me entertained throughout the flight and even when I make it to Spain. 

Firstly, the most important thing to pack is my passport. It would be pretty foolish to get to the airport without my passport wouldn’t it? I like to carry it in a small bag on my waist whilst making it around the airport but when I’m on the flight it’s packed away in my case for the duration of the flight and then removed when needed. This is usually with all the documents I’m going to need which include my visa (as I’m on a different visa than a travel visa) and insurance documents. I’ll also include any valuables in this so my phone and money with my purse. Since I am stopping in spain I took a small amount of euro’s to grab some food whilst in Spain and and USD for when I arrived in New York. 

Next is my entertainment for the flight. I always like to take a book as I’m an avid reader but this time I wanted to take a colouring book and colouring pencils as I’m likely to use the colouring book at different stages throughout my trip. I didn’t want to over pack so these are the only things I took for the flight and I’ll also have movies on the flight to New York from Madrid. I’ll definitely have lots to do! 

I packed a few toiletries in these small toiletry bag just to freshen myself up throughout the flight. There are so many germs on airplanes and being in such a small place for so long can really make you feel a little dirty and just a bit gross. To make me feel a little better I paced a toothbrush and toothpaste, I was originally going to bring chewing gum with me but I thought that it would be best to bring toothpaste and toothbrush that I can use again whilst I’m away and will save space (not a lot but some) in my case.  I added a deodorant as well because nobody wants to sit by someone who smells do they.  

I didn’t bother wearing any makeup whilst I flew because I just didn’t see the point in it really but it’s still nice to feel a bit brighter. To do this I took some skin care products, I really wanted to make sure I had some hydrating mist with me because I just find that it sinks into my skin and just makes me feel more awake. I packed some wipes and hand sanitiser because you just don’t know when you’re going to need these. Whenever I fly I find that my skin becomes really dry and needs a little bit of loving so I added some hydrating moisturiser that will help to make me feel and look more awake when I arrive. 

I then packed a few other personal items. I do take prescription medicines so I made sure had all of my medicine with me just in case my other suitcase goes missing. On that note, I packed extra underwear because you just don’t know what’s going to happen do you? I made sure to pack my glasses and sunglasses for the same reason and any chargers I need. 

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With love, Beth x 

20 Summer Blog Post Ideas

Summer is here and some of you guys may be struggling with what posts to publish throughout the season and how to make your blog summer ready. So, here are 20 blog post ideas for you guys. 

1- Create and share a summer inspired hairstyle.

2- Share your summer goals.

3- Show us some of your summer pictures.

4- Favourite things about summer.

5- Summer beauty hacks.

6- Tell us about some old summer stories.

7- Explain what has changed about you since summer 2016 to now.

8- A summer outfit.

9- A summer makeup look.

10- Your favourite skincare for summer.

11- Garden Party Decor

12- How you prepare for the upcoming academic year.

13- A day in the life.

14- A recipe.

15- DIY Ice Cream or Ice Lollies.

16- A photo a day.

17- Summer cocktail recipes.

18- How do you keep healthy and fit during the summer.

19- Travel guide from your trips.

20- Favourite summer scents.

Share this post to give other bloggers ideas of what the post this summer. 

With love, Beth x 

What’s In My Suitcase

I’m heading away in just 1 week and because I’m so incredibly organised I started packing weeks ago (just can’t help myself) and I thought I would take you through what I’ve packed with me to take away on my trip. As I am working with children on a summer camp all summer I made sure to pack plenty of things that I’ll need to keep me going throughout working but also a few items that I’ll need for when I’m travelling after and when I have days off. I

I made sure to take at least a 8 days worth of clothing but I will be wearing a staff t-shirt (I have 8) every single day so I don’t really need many t-shirts but I did take 8 just for when I travel. I also have my clothes washed weekly so I’ve taken 8 to make sure I have 1 day’s worth of clothing whilst the others are being washed. Each member of staff were given a recommended packing list which I have actually taken into account so I’ll just jump straight into it. 

  • 8 pairs of shorts. 
  • 8 t-shirts. 
  • 1 pair of sports leggings. 
  • 1 pair of jeans. 
  • 14 pairs of underwear. 
  • 20 pairs of socks (highly recommended because they go missing). 
  • 1 Zipped hoodie. 
  • 2 pairs of trainers. 
  • 1 pair of walking boots. 
  • 1 pair of sandals. 
  • 1 towel. 
  • 1 raincoat. 
  • 2 swimming suits.
  • 2 bikinis (for after camp as we aren’t allowed to wear them in camp).
  • 3 dress outfits for the evenings: 2 dress, 1 skirt, 1 playsuit. 

There is a optional list of personal items that include things like a flashlight, sleeping bag and linens but these are things I’ll purchase when I arrive and dispose of before heading back to the UK. 

Personal items: 

  • Sunglasses (packed in carry on). 
  • Baseball cap. 
  • Backpack. 
  • Waterproof watch (with alarm as we aren’t allowed phones in cabins). 
  • Toiletries + makeup. 

I haven’t bothered to pack a hairdryer or straightener because I don’t think I’m going to have time to straighten and dry my hair all the time. I have packed elastics and hair bobbles though because my hair will mostly be up all the time or in braids. I haven’t packed as much as I probably could have because I thought I would just go to the Walmart or Target and get anything I may need like a fan and other things. 

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With love, Beth x