Fighting Those Post Break-Up Feelings

At 21 years old I’ve officially experienced my first heart break and let me tell you, it’s shit. The hardest thing I have ever had to do is walk away from someone whilst still loving them, it’s the worst feeling in the world but now I know that it was the right decision for both of us. It just wasn’t supposed to be and that’s for a number of reasons but I don’t regret a single moment I spent with him. I learned so much about who I am whilst in a relationship and now that I’m single and that’s OK and for now I get to be selfish and live my life a quarter mile at a time doing exactly what I want to do. 

However, I knew exactly how it feels to fight those post breakup feelings of anxiety, grief and anger. It’s actually so sad, my friend told me to treat it like a death rather than a break-up and it was probably the best bit of advice I had been given. Whether you’ve just broken up or you’re a few months down the line it can still be challenging but there are things to do to make the process easier. 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a break-up expert by no means. In fact I was and often continue to be a total mess, you aren’t alone in that one. I took gradual steps after my break-up to process and grieve my loss and it took a while but eventually I figured myself out. 

Step 1: Change your relationship status, remove the photos, give back their things. Leaving these things around will only make the process harder, believe me I know. Once you do it you feel so much better, like weight has been lifted off your shoulders. Having a clear out also just makes you feel more refreshed, think of it as changing the your summer clothes to your winter clothes. Out with the old and in with the new. 

Step 2: Take it slow. Stop rushing things, you wont wake up the next day and feel wonderful. It does take time, so give yourself time to process the situation. I don’t mean spend all day, every day dwelling on what could have been and feeling sad about it. I mean give yourself a few minutes to think about it, get up, shake it off and distract yourself. It’s okay to think about it and be sad but you need to do other things to do slowly adjust. I read all 7 Harry Potter books (best decision I ever made), got a summer job to distract myself and started eating healthy and exercising.

Step 3: Put yourself first. Was there something you wanted to do before you broke up that you wouldn’t have done whilst you were together? Now is your opportunity to do it. I’ve focused my time to lose weight and, study my masters degree, work and make new friends. I’m eating healthier and less, the weight is slowly coming off me and it’s increasing my self-esteem massively, I feel so much better every single time I see those numbers on the scale fall. I continue to embrace my new life as a masters student, occasionally go off plan through drinking wine or eating a little unhealthy whilst I make new friends and learn how to juggle my life.

Step 4: Go out, be sociable and meet new people. You have to get yourself back out there and especially into the world of dating (that dreaded world). My friends told me that you have to kiss a lot of frogs for you find your prince, so you go kiss those frogs (when you’re good and ready of course). Being sociable will really help to keep your mind off things and along the way you may find yourself with a new partner but most importantly, new friends and founding confidence. 

Step 5: Learn to accept the change, embrace your new founding freedom and remember that you probably weren’t the reason for the break-up and things don’t always pan out the way you planned things. Your dream wedding with the guy of your dreams will happen, just not at this moment. Yeah it’s shit because you planned your baby names, what dog you wanted and the type of house you wanted to live in. Those things will come, just with someone else eventually. You’re still worthy of love and attention, don’t you forget that. 

Remember, your break-up doesn’t define who you are. You can be anybody you want to be, so go out and be her/him. You now have the chance to do more of what makes you happy with the privileged of not worrying about someone else. 

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With love, Beth x 

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Things To Do Before I Turn 25

I’m only 4 years away from turning 25 which isn’t really that long. A lot can change and happen in 4 years but I still want to make them some of the best years of my life. I’m not crazy adventurous and I’m probably the least spontaneous person ever because I like to be so organised and plan things. This doesn’t mean that I can’t plan to do some incredible things before I reach 25 years old. So, I thought I would share them with you. 

  • I failed my driving test in 2015 and never had the money to resist (student life, eh?). My theory test then ran out and life got in the way and I’ve never returned to it. Driving is something I’ve always wanted to do and although I don’t have any rush to do this, I now am at that age when I know it’s something I want to do before I reach 25. 
  • Finish education. I’m soon to start my master’s degree and after that, I don’t really think I want to do a PhD. This is probably the most realistic aspiration right now and I’m okay with that.  Coming soon.. Bethan Davies MA. 
  • Visit more of the UK. I was born and raised in Wales and I’ve not even seen a small portion of the country at all. I want to see more of where I’m from and learn more about the history of this lovely country. 
  • I would like to experience what it’s like to live alone before I eventually settle down. By alone I mean completely alone with no flatmates. This might seem weird to some but to me, this is just something I feel that all adults should have the opportunity to experience as it can open up a whole world of independence and a way to gain general life skills. 
  • Buy something expensive. A car? A piece of jewellery? I don’t know. I do know though, I want to purchase something out of my own money that is expensive but has meaning and a purpose. I don’t want to spend thousands of pounds on a Chanel bag (or do I?!) but I’d like to have something that I can look at and know what it resembles. 

There we have some of the major things I want to do before I reach 25. Perhaps some are a little extreme or not doable but I’ll spend some time trying to make these happen. If I only pick two or three of the list I’ll be happy. 

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With love, Beth x 

Date Night Makeup Look

Valentine’s Day is approaching and we all want to look out best for our significant other. So, get your best dress out and your favourite lipstick and away we go! I really enjoy the basic, natural eye look with a red lip. Keep reading to find out how I achieve this look!

I always start my makeup off with clean, moisturised base. I then go in with the Benefit Porefessional Matte Rescue primer and massage it into my t-zone, since this is where I have the most issue trying to keep foundations to sit. After it’s settled I used the Maybelline Fit Me Matte and Poreless foundation and buff it in with a dense brush. Taking the Maybelline Fit Me concealer in light I used my Real Techniques sponge and made sure everything looks seamless, ensuring that I bring it down my neck.  I then set my base using the Revlon Photoready powder to make sure it stays put throughout the whole night and making sure I especially pack it on under my eyes and nose area. I used the Too Faced Grande Hotel Cafe collection to add a light bronzer from the Gingerbread Cookie palette and blusher from the Peppermint Mocha palette (pictures below) and then highlighted my cheek bones, bridge of my nose and cupids bow with The Balm Mary Lou Manizer



For the eyes I want to keep them simple and classy, with a strong eyeliner and light crease colour. Using the Too Faced Grande Hotel Cafe collection again, from the Eggnog Latte palette I started with using the ‘Frosty Nog’ shade all over my lid and then using the shade ‘Skinny Latte’ in my crease, slowly building it up until my ideal shade. I added a strong wing to my upper lash line using the Ciate Fierce Flicks eyeliner and the Bourjois Black Kohl eyeliner in my upper waterline. 

For my lip colour I used the Avon Cosmetics matte lip colour in Wild Cherry all over. 



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How To Prepare To Write An Assignment

Hey!

As a student I know how difficult it is to actually sit down and write an assignment. The worst bit for me is definitely the mentally preparing myself to actually attempt to write it, especially when I’ve not created a plan or if I don’t actually understand what I’m doing. These are my few tips and tricks that can help you to prepare yourself and become motivated to actually write an assignment.

#1: Look at the assignment guidelines, check what your assignment requires and begin to think about how you’re going to go around it. Doing this will help you to discover what the title asks if you and during this time you can begin to mentally prepare the content of your assignment.

#2: Create a step by step plan. Doing this will help you to place your content into the correct areas. Ensure that you’re sticking to the plan through the writing process, if you don’t you may find yourself going off track and writing the wrong content. An example below:

-Introduction 

– Main text 

Paragraph 1:

  • Bullet point notes and subtitles, this will help you to stick to your content.

Paragraph 2:

Paragraph 3:

– Conclusion 

#3: Reading the recommended reading is so important as it’s a starting point to where you can begin to write your assignment. The recommended reading list is clearly recommnded for a reason and it’s a crucial area for the writing process. I was definitely this person to avoid the reading and it always ended up with a bad grade.

#4: Don’t begin an assignment hungry, ever. Get yourself some snacks and a drink to settle you for a few hours. This way you won’t get distracted when you’re becoming bored and you can reward yourself with new snacks every time you’ve finished a big section.

#5: Create a space full of no distraction. Boredom can give you the opportunity to clean your room, organise your DVDs and CDs alphabetically or wash the windows. I always make my way to the library and give myself a distraction free zone. There is nothing in the library that I’ll find distracting other than social media and I’ll have to resist the urge.

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With love, B x

First Anniversary

A spontaneous post whilst written with my left hand. How exciting for you! Actually, today is exciting for Matt and I. It’s our first anniversary together and I still can’t believe how fast this year has gone. I wasn’t going to put a post up about this for several reasons, 1. Neither of us have ever had a long term relationship that has lasted a year and therefore this anniversary is a little extra special for us. 2. It’s personal and quite cheesy, I wasn’t sure whether I wanted everybody to see that I’m actually quite emotional and cringey when it comes to my relationship. I’m one of those girlfriends who isn’t ashamed to let everybody know that I’m utterly in love with Matthew. 3. With a fractured wrist this is actually quite difficult to write, if it doesn’t sound right or is a little messy then i’m sorry for the errors.

Our relationship isn’t perfect, in fact I think every relationship is hard. Don’t get me wrong, I love Matt but cleaning up after him because he’s so messy and accepting that he’s lazy is difficult and will continue to be hard. I’m sure it’s not been easy for Matt either, having a girlfriend who moans a lot, is needy and has regular panic attacks has no doubt put pressure on him during our time together. We’re a team, we work together even when we annoy each other and stress each other out. I couldn’t ever imagine my life without him by my side. We have shared countless amounts of memories, stories, and arguments that has made me more excited to spend another year with the one person who challenges and loves me more than most. He brings out so much life in me, I’ve never, ever met anybody who is so accepting of me and loves me for every flaw and imperfection. He really is such a huge part of my life and I think he always will be.

Our plans to celebrate aren’t big at all as Matt and I aren’t fussed on receiving big, expensive presents. Because of this we’ve planned to have a quiet meal and a few drinks this evening and to top it off, a walk on the beach. We’ve also not bought anything for each other, so we thought we would celebrate by going into town and picking one item each for the other person. I couldn’t imagine spending this day any other way.

Happy anniversary my love, I’m looking forward to a few more.

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