It’s been a while now since I posted about my anxiety and I thought it was time to update you on how I’ve been.
During the summer I was feeling quite low for a fair while actually. I came back from New York with my self esteem feeling destroyed and then I experienced a break up shortly after. This making my anxiety hit an all time low. Some days were good, I felt like my life was finally getting on track and I was feeling myself. Then other days just weren’t so good and I hated everyone and everything but mostly myself.
It was a whirlwind of an experience. I couldn’t help but feel like I had ruined everything, that it was all my fault and I was only to blame for my errors. Although some of that isn’t wrong I don’t feel like it’s all totally my fault. I think life got in the way, things happened and I didn’t fail. It was just how things were to plan out and I had been given a fresh start.
However, now I feel different. Sometimes crappy and down but mostly good. Most of the time I feel like I’ve finally got my shit together. I’m back in uni, I’ve made new friends, I lost some weight and plan to carry on and finally, I don’t feel that I have to please everybody.
I don’t regret the mistakes I’ve made, I’ve learned from them. Overall, my mental health is feeling fantastic and I am feeling better than I have done. I’m still human and I still have moments but honestly, I feel pretty great. I’ve also been reading different blogs recently, specifically with posts about mental health. Some of my favourites have been:
You should definitely check them out, I highly recommend them!
With love, Beth x