Fighting Those Post Break-Up Feelings

At 21 years old I’ve officially experienced my first heart break and let me tell you, it’s shit. The hardest thing I have ever had to do is walk away from someone whilst still loving them, it’s the worst feeling in the world but now I know that it was the right decision for both of us. It just wasn’t supposed to be and that’s for a number of reasons but I don’t regret a single moment I spent with him. I learned so much about who I am whilst in a relationship and now that I’m single and that’s OK and for now I get to be selfish and live my life a quarter mile at a time doing exactly what I want to do. 

However, I knew exactly how it feels to fight those post breakup feelings of anxiety, grief and anger. It’s actually so sad, my friend told me to treat it like a death rather than a break-up and it was probably the best bit of advice I had been given. Whether you’ve just broken up or you’re a few months down the line it can still be challenging but there are things to do to make the process easier. 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a break-up expert by no means. In fact I was and often continue to be a total mess, you aren’t alone in that one. I took gradual steps after my break-up to process and grieve my loss and it took a while but eventually I figured myself out. 

Step 1: Change your relationship status, remove the photos, give back their things. Leaving these things around will only make the process harder, believe me I know. Once you do it you feel so much better, like weight has been lifted off your shoulders. Having a clear out also just makes you feel more refreshed, think of it as changing the your summer clothes to your winter clothes. Out with the old and in with the new. 

Step 2: Take it slow. Stop rushing things, you wont wake up the next day and feel wonderful. It does take time, so give yourself time to process the situation. I don’t mean spend all day, every day dwelling on what could have been and feeling sad about it. I mean give yourself a few minutes to think about it, get up, shake it off and distract yourself. It’s okay to think about it and be sad but you need to do other things to do slowly adjust. I read all 7 Harry Potter books (best decision I ever made), got a summer job to distract myself and started eating healthy and exercising.

Step 3: Put yourself first. Was there something you wanted to do before you broke up that you wouldn’t have done whilst you were together? Now is your opportunity to do it. I’ve focused my time to lose weight and, study my masters degree, work and make new friends. I’m eating healthier and less, the weight is slowly coming off me and it’s increasing my self-esteem massively, I feel so much better every single time I see those numbers on the scale fall. I continue to embrace my new life as a masters student, occasionally go off plan through drinking wine or eating a little unhealthy whilst I make new friends and learn how to juggle my life.

Step 4: Go out, be sociable and meet new people. You have to get yourself back out there and especially into the world of dating (that dreaded world). My friends told me that you have to kiss a lot of frogs for you find your prince, so you go kiss those frogs (when you’re good and ready of course). Being sociable will really help to keep your mind off things and along the way you may find yourself with a new partner but most importantly, new friends and founding confidence. 

Step 5: Learn to accept the change, embrace your new founding freedom and remember that you probably weren’t the reason for the break-up and things don’t always pan out the way you planned things. Your dream wedding with the guy of your dreams will happen, just not at this moment. Yeah it’s shit because you planned your baby names, what dog you wanted and the type of house you wanted to live in. Those things will come, just with someone else eventually. You’re still worthy of love and attention, don’t you forget that. 

Remember, your break-up doesn’t define who you are. You can be anybody you want to be, so go out and be her/him. You now have the chance to do more of what makes you happy with the privileged of not worrying about someone else. 

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With love, Beth x 

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My Yoga Experience: Week 1

I’ve been interested in yoga for a while now and the only reason I never started practicingbefore was due to my lack of knowledge. As everybody else in times of need, I went to youtube. I started watching Yoga With Adriene and was particularly interested in her beginner tutorials. I finally gave in and decided to give it a go and thought how good it would be to give a diary of my weeks whilst introducing yoga into my life.

Sunday 3rd September 2017:

I started my first session on the 3rd September 2017 whilst I was feeling particularly heavy and least energetic. I was even contemplating a nap at this point. I took the plunge and watched the tutorial called Yoga for Complete Beginners: 20 Minute Home Yoga Workout

At the beginning my thoughts were that I wouldn’t be able to finish 10 minutes let alone 20, it just looked so exhausting and strenuous. However, I competed the whole tutorial and afterwards I felt so incredibly relieved. Not because I wanted it to finish but because my body felt instantly lighter, my core felt like I had completed a 60 minute ab-session but most importantly, I feel like a whole lot of weight lifted from my shoulders. 

I had heard the benefits of yoga before but never really considered them as a benefactor towards my life. Although after the first session I couldn’t wait for my next session. 20 minutes was definitely long enough for my first session because after I had finished  my arms and legs felt like jelly but mentally, I felt incredible. 

I was so impressed by how well I felt after the first attempt I decided to give it a second go right before I went to bed. I followed a picture from Pinterest that had 9 poses, each to be held for 20 seconds with deep breathing. 


Right after I instantly felt so relaxed and like all my worries had disappeared. My muscles felt incredible and I just felt prepared for a good nights sleep. I also had the best night sleep!

Monday 4th September 2017: 

The morning of day 2 I thought I would start with yoga before doing anything else to help me prepare for the day.  

I woke up and followed another Pinterest post by Darebee. This post was called wake up and connect and that is exactly what I did! 


These poses really helped to stretch out my muscles and mentally, gave me a better look on the day ahead.  

I then followed Yoga with Adriene in yoga for weight loss – hips and core vinyasa. I then read once I had completed it that it was intermediate which I am definitely not as of yet. So I did find certain poses difficult. However, my body felt really good and all my muscles felt like I had been completely stretched out. 

Although I didn’t do the poses perfectly I gave it a good attempt and I still felt happy and satisfied after completing it. 

I definitely realised how challenging yoga actually is and I have underestimated all yoga-doers abilities in the past. I totally apologise and you are all basically gods for doing this every day. Although it does make you feel amazing. 

After work I decided it to go ahead and do another 10 minute session for beginners, this time following the 10 minute yoga workout for beginners to improve flexibility on YouTube. At this point I was feeling pretty unwell with a sore throat and ears, normally I’d totally ignore any type of exercise and would lay in bed feeling sorry for myself. This time I couldn’t wait to stretch my muscles out and feel more relaxed. The session really got my heart racing and by the end of the session I really did feel like my flexibility had gotten better in just a small amount of time. I also felt my heart racing and I was sweating, honestly it does feel like a full workout, essentially it is though. 

Afterwards although I was still feeling the sore throat and ears but I wasn’t feeling drained and it helped me to relax more and ignore the pain I was experiencing. 

Tuesday 5th September 2017: 

I woke up early to have a 20 minute yoga session, right now in the week I feel like 20 minutes is all I need and eventually I may increase this when I become more flexible and familiar with the practice. 

This morning I did a 20 minute morning yoga – gentle morning sequence whilst following Yoga with Adriene. I particularly enjoyed this session because I could really wake myself up from it, before I started I felt drained and tired but right after I felt so much more exergetic and prepared for the day. In this tutorial I thoroughly enjoyed the cat-like poses and movements, I felt less pressure in my back after doing these. I also feel like my thigh muscles are gradually becoming stronger, as are my shoulders. Admittedly, my downward dog pose isn’t my strongest point but I still enjoy it!

I realised that Yoga with Adriene is my favourite tutorials/sessions to follow because she is just so calm and relaxing to listen too, along with that she just knows what she’s doing.

The third evening came, I went to dinner wih my friends and when I got home I still felt prepared to do a session. I waited a little while to ensure my food had fully settled before beginning a 25 minute gentle yoga sequence. This session was really calming but it actually allowed me to think of the  events that happened during the day, along with releasing any worrying overwhelming thoughts and just release for negativity in my life. I also also like a baby! 

Wednesday 6th September 2017:

I woke up on the 4th day feeling unusually tired and almost, very nearly resisted the practice but I knew I would hate myself for missing it. So I went ahead and followed the Wake Up and Connect Pinterest post that I showed you above. However, this time I held each pose for a longer amount of time, around 50-60 seconds per pose. I did find it slightly more difficult but each day I do find that certain poses are improving and others I still find difficult. The plank is my absolute worst, I get severe shakes when I do this post. 

Each day I feel my muscles getting stronger and my body changing. Doing yoga in the mornings and before bed has really already made a difference to my mentality and physical strength. However, on this particular day I felt especially more aching than usual so I continued with the session but for less amount of time and maintained a relaxed and comfortable posture in each position. I can really feel the difference it is making in my body!

I had a free night planned so I went ahead and did my first 40 minute practice, following another Yoga with Adriene tutorial. This one was a 40 minute home yoga work out for beginners and it really did test my strengths but also, I actually preferred to do a 40 minute session than a normal 20 minute. I felt more relaxed and more willing to continue to hold the poses for longer. Perhaps this is because I’m improving my flexibility and gradually increasing my abilities. 

By the end of day 4 I’ve been thoroughly enjoying practicing yoga and at the end of each day I’m excited for the next just to do more Yoga. Something I can honestly say, I’ve never felt towards any other form of exercise. 

Thursday 7th September 2017: 

This morning’s practice was a little different as I followed a Pinterest post called 10 yoga poses you can do from your bed. At first I thought the surface of the bed was not going to be firm enough for me to hold the poses but it wasn’t that bad. In fact, it was a nice relief for my knees since I haven’t been using a yoga mat (to purchase next). 

The poses I completed were wide child’s pose, the cat pose, seated spinal twist, seated side bend, forward fold, spinal twist, pigeon pose, happy baby, cobra and bow pose. These poses are perfect to stretch out all of the muscles in your body and after every session my back feels incredible. All week I have loved nothing more than waking up and stretching out my body ready for the day ahead. 

After work I went ahead and settled myself down by completing another Yoga with Adriene video called a little goes a long way. I really enjoyed this practice because it focuses on how to become more aware of your breathing and concentrate on mindefulness and awareness of your body. These poses are especially good because the more advanced you become the more improvement you can make to these poses and change them to alter your capabilities. Another night where I slept like a baby and I know its because of yoga!

Friday 8th September 2017: 

Knowing this day was gloomy, dark and rainy did make it slightly harder to leave my bed. Although like always, I felt so awake and alive after completing a short 10 minute session. It’s easy to say everyday that I feel more alive or awake but honestly, I do. I also like how different my body feels eat morning, some days my body is more flexible than the previous day and other days my muscles are tight and I’m sore. I think it takes some getting used too but I’m loving how different I feel physically and mindfully. 

Today’s morning session was a short morning routine which can be found on Pinterest. I wanted to do a session but I didn’t want anything too strenuous. So I went for a short 10 minute session where I was able to stretch out all my muscles. I prefer to do a short session in the morning and a 20-40 minute session during the evening. I find that I’m able to give it more time and attention in the evening/afternoon time than the morning. However, I like the feeling I get when I complete a session in the morning as it really helps me to open up and prepare for the day. 

Evening session was following a yoga for neck and shoulder relief practice. My shoulders were feeling good particularly sore but mainly I felt like givin my core a rest as it’s become very tight and aching but, I can only hope this is good. Although this practice wasn’t my favourite I did feel relaxed and good after completing it. It was nice to give my legs and core a break but as well as to give myself more movement within my shoulder and knock area. It was also especially good to give myself more practice with straightening my back within the sitting position. 

Saturday 9th September 2017:  

This morning I decided to follow the same poses from Thursday morning but this time I held them longer and did them in the floor. This time I practiced for around 25 minutes and paid more attention to my breathing. I really do prefer this practice on the floor rather than a bed and I think it is the ideal morning session.  

For the evening session I followed the bed time session on Pinterest. I actually feel like this is the best way to do a session and get a great nights sleep. I’ve found that each time I’ve done this practice I’ve slept so well and I wake up feeling 10x more refreshed than ever.

How do I feel?

I feel incredible. My body feels so grateful for practicing and actually adding exercise to my diet. I don’t really feel like yoga is exercise but it definitely does feel like a full body work out. I always feel like I’ve tested and stretched out each muscle in my body.

Very early on within the week I realised that I felt better when doing yoga early in the morning, generally before I have any food or do any other activities. After thoroughly researching others also felt the same. However, I do like to do some yoga before bed, only a small season of maybe a few 20sec poses but I just feel like I have a better nights sleep when I do it. 

I’m yet to try it before or after exercise, so for week 2 I plan to see how I feel doing yoga in the mornings before exercise and after. I also want to test this during the evening to see which time of day it really makes a difference. 

Honestly though, I’ve loved my first week of yoga! I’m definitely going to see how things continue to go and how I improve and perhaps I’ll put up another post about my exercise with yoga in a few weeks.

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With love, Beth x

September Goals

September has arrived and it’s by far my favourite month during the year. I love nothing more than new stationary, packing my things and moving back to uni and most importantly, the new academic year. This might sound weird for some but I can’t wait to move to my new home in just a few days time. 

My monthly goals this month are probably going to be a little more challenging but I’m going to cater them to my new life in another little town. 

There we have it, September’s monthly goals. Check back in at the end of the month to see how well I did. 

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With love, Beth x 

Things To Do Before I Turn 25

I’m only 4 years away from turning 25 which isn’t really that long. A lot can change and happen in 4 years but I still want to make them some of the best years of my life. I’m not crazy adventurous and I’m probably the least spontaneous person ever because I like to be so organised and plan things. This doesn’t mean that I can’t plan to do some incredible things before I reach 25 years old. So, I thought I would share them with you. 

  • I failed my driving test in 2015 and never had the money to resist (student life, eh?). My theory test then ran out and life got in the way and I’ve never returned to it. Driving is something I’ve always wanted to do and although I don’t have any rush to do this, I now am at that age when I know it’s something I want to do before I reach 25. 
  • Finish education. I’m soon to start my master’s degree and after that, I don’t really think I want to do a PhD. This is probably the most realistic aspiration right now and I’m okay with that.  Coming soon.. Bethan Davies MA. 
  • Visit more of the UK. I was born and raised in Wales and I’ve not even seen a small portion of the country at all. I want to see more of where I’m from and learn more about the history of this lovely country. 
  • I would like to experience what it’s like to live alone before I eventually settle down. By alone I mean completely alone with no flatmates. This might seem weird to some but to me, this is just something I feel that all adults should have the opportunity to experience as it can open up a whole world of independence and a way to gain general life skills. 
  • Buy something expensive. A car? A piece of jewellery? I don’t know. I do know though, I want to purchase something out of my own money that is expensive but has meaning and a purpose. I don’t want to spend thousands of pounds on a Chanel bag (or do I?!) but I’d like to have something that I can look at and know what it resembles. 

There we have some of the major things I want to do before I reach 25. Perhaps some are a little extreme or not doable but I’ll spend some time trying to make these happen. If I only pick two or three of the list I’ll be happy. 

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With love, Beth x 

Before I Die…

I read a book a few months ago called All The Bright Things. In this book the characters were listing the things they wanted to do, achieve or create before they die and it inspired me to write about the things I want to do before I do (a long time away I hope so plenty of time to get through my list!). So, let’s jump straight in shall we. 

Before I die I want to…

  • Swim with dolphins. 
  • Go to Hawaii. 
  • Own a home (or two if I’m lucky enough). 
  • Be my own boss. 
  • Have children and raise them in a two parent home. 
  • Go to Italy and make my own pizza (I know I can do this anywhere but.. Italy right?). 
  • Be given the type of love only a parent can get. 
  • Marry my best friend.
  • Build a tree house. 
  • Visit the Great Barrier Reef. 
  • Visit more of the UK. 
  • Go and visit Jess in Canada. 
  • Work abroad for a year. 
  • Own a high end bag. 
  • Take a trip with just my brothers (probably too wishful). 
  • Witness a miracle.
  • Never have to worry about money. 
  • Go on a safari. 

Across the years I’ll probably accomplish some of these things and continue to add more. This is just the start of my very long journey. How about you guys write your own list of things to do, achieve or create before you die!

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A Open Letter To My Younger Self..

Dear teenage Beth,

You did it. You will reach adulthood and the minor problems in your young, teenage life has not determined who you will become and what you will achieve. At the time, being a teenage is the harder thing in the world. What seems like the biggest problems eventually become smaller and smaller, before you realise they were so meaningless and will play no importance to your future.

Your best friends will change but you will always remember your first, the first best friend to go shopping with and who you turn to in times of need. Yes, you’ll find others who also mean so much to you but that first one, they will never be forgotten. It’s okay to move on, it’s all a part of living.

Your parents are trying their hardest and they don’t always get it right but that’s okay, you’ll learn to forgive and forget because they gave you life and more. They aren’t perfect, they’re strict and often have no idea about anything you have an interest in but they care for you and protect you in so many ways and simply want what’s best for you. Even if they don’t always know what that is.

You’re not fat. You never have been and you will definitely gain weight but  your mental health will change and you’ll realise that you’re healthy. Most of all, you are worthy of love, time and friendships and being a 5’2 curvy woman will not change whether you’re loved or attractive.

That boy you met in the club and made your night out fantastic.. Forget him. He’s not important. The boy you thought was your first love and you could never live without him.. Yeah, forget him too, he wasn’t your first love. You’ll meet someone eventually and they’ll change your whole world and show you exactly what it is to be loved and love. Everyday he will show you that you’re the best thing in the world and without you his life won’t ever be the same, hold on to it because it’s the best thing ever. Argue with him, love him, be funny and always appreciate the little things. You would be lost without him. 

However, your first real heartbreak will come and you will feel awful all the time. From what people have said though, you’ll move on but you’ll never forget him. That’s okay because I’m sure he won’t ever forget you too. 

Your health is the most important thing in the world so take a break. You’re stubborn and hardworking and whenever you put your mind to something you won’t stop until it’s achieved to above satisfaction. Your body is not a temple and it needs time to rest and relax from your very busy antics. You’re not iron man and you will only get worse if you’re not giving yourself time to enjoy the little thing and appreciate laying in bed all day reading a book. 

You done good kiddo. Enjoy your life, it’ll fly by. 

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With love, Beth x 

What’s Up, Buttercup?

During the past 5 weeks a lot of things have happened but most importantly of all, I received my university classification and I realised I have to get my shit together. 

I graduated Aberystwyth University with a upper second class honours degree in Childhood Studies BA Hons (2:1). This is a huge achievement that I’m extremely proud of, in fact I can’t believe it’s happened. I’ve spent the last 3 years working so incredibly hard to achieve this degree and I never thought I would achieve the grade that I did, let alone have a first in my dissertation. 

However, nobody prepares you to finish university and enter the real world and become a proper adult. I honestly believe that there should be a third year module called How to Adult. This should be on all higher education courses. 

So, I had decisions to make. To move home, find a full time job and make a start on adulting. Or another option, stay in university and do a Masters of Arts degree. Well, after serious consideration I’m prepared for 2 more years in university to study a MA degree in Equality and Diversity in Society. 

Only three years ago I was preparing to study my first degree, now I’m preparing to move to a new town and study my next. Am I ready to start adulting? Absolutely not. Do I have to do it anyway? Absolutely, just throw myself in the deep end and pray that I can swim. 

MA degrees are funded differently and I don’t have student finance to pay my tuition fees for me now. Instead, I’ll receive a 10,000 loan for the 2 year period and £6000 of that will be spent on the course. Therefore I need a job with plenty of hours and a decent pay to fund my lifestyle and bills. It’ll be hard yes, but I’m so looking forward to a fresh start and a change in lifestyle. 

Onto the next adventure!