Matalan Wish List 

As you know I’m heading away for the whole summer and I’m going to New York. I don’t really have many summer clothes as I’ve thrown a lot away since they were old and tatty. So for the past few weeks in preparation for a big clothing shop I’ve been window shopping and browsing online at the types of things I want to buy before I head away and I thought I would show you guys. 

I first went online to Matalan which I think is extremely underrated. Before moving to Aberystwyth I never ever shopped at Matalan and now I live here I generally have no choice but to shop there since we only have 2 actual clothing shops that I like. With that in mind, I’ve found some gorgeous items for the summer and realised Matalan are really upping their game! Their items aren’t all that expensive and generally they’re such wonderful and strong material. 

I looked at the summer holiday section and found a fair few things that I like and may actually mix up. Firstly, these very pretty kaftan beach dresses (not entirely sure what to call them). These would be perfect for to throw over when you don’t want all that much sun. The white Pom Pom dress would be so cuter to wear to an evening stroll on the beach. I love how different these both are but still so pretty and flattering. 

Price: £16 check here.

 

Price: £10 check here.

Next is another dress but a slightly more casual dress for evenings with a pair of heels or day time with sandals. I love how cute and petite it looks and the colour would look beautiful with a tan. 


Priced: £12 check here

I’ve not always been the biggest lover of playsuits as I generally like them to be quite spacious and baggy but I saw this one and immediately fell in love with it. I think I’ll still get this in a bigger size and wear it as an evening outfit. 

Price: £9 check here.

I’ve been on the hunt for shorts this year but I’m quite fussy with them since I do have issues with the dreaded chub rub (thighs rubbing together). I’ve selected a few pairs that I like the look of but I think I’m going to go in store and try them before I buy them. I’m just going to see whether they’re long enough to make me feel comfortable in them. 

Price: £8 check here. 

Price: £14, check here.

Price: £4. Available in different colours, check here. 

Swim wear will be something I never ever get on with. I like to feel comfortable at all times and I’m insecure about my body and weight so it makes everything worse. I like to look for costumes and bikinis that will flatter my curves and make me feel good (doesn’t everybody). I found two swim suits that I really like the design of and hope that they flatter me. Again, I’ll go instore and try these on. 

Price: £16, check here

Price: £16, check here.

There we have my Matalan summer wish list! You should check out their website or go in store, they have some beautiful items for next to nothing. 

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My Curves

I have never been a small, skinny girl. Ever since puberty began I gained weight and my body shaped formed into curves, big booty and big boobs and over time I learnt that there isn’t anything wrong with that. I spent all of my adolescent years and even now at 21 struggling with body confidence, being ashamed of the body I have and feeling that I couldn’t be proud of the body I was given because it isn’t what society deems beautiful. But I am beautiful. I may not be skinny but my curves are a part of me and I feel so damn sexy in them. It’s baffling how many girls feel that they aren’t sexy because they aren’t a specific size.

In the UK the average woman is a size 14-16. In my wardrobe my clothes vary from size 10, 12, 14 and I even own a size 16 dress. So what am I? above average? Below average? or average? Does my size of clothes determine whether I am healthy? Does my body shape make any difference to anybody other than myself?

In the summer of 2015 I lost almost 2 stone in weight and I didn’t feel any healthier than before. I went from weighing 13’6 stone to 11’10 and although I knew I looked good. I didn’t feel good. I was afraid to eat in case I gained weight, I was so happy every time the numbers stopped on the scale. I wasn’t enjoying my food. Losing weight took over my life and nothing would stop me. Nothing made me happy like losing weight. Then I met Matt. Matt and I met in September 2015 just after I lost the weight. Right from the start he made me so happy, loved me for my curves and my edges. His love helped me to start eating properly again and enjoy my food. It wasn’t easy but I became happy again, remembered what I loved about my body. My body loves me. 

The biggest problem for me is feeling comfortable in clothes and I know how challenging it is to find outfits that make you look and feel beautiful. Here are a few outfits that I like and flatter y curves. Don’t fear them, love them. 


This bodycon dress makes me feel so comfortable and I think it’s really flattering on me. I like that it doesn’t make me look massive (or so I think). I even like that it does place emphasis on curves. That evening I felt so good and comfortable!


I freaking love skirts. I love showing off my legs and although I don’t always feel comfortable doing so. I know that I should mainly for my self esteem. This photo was taken on a holiday in Spain last year and I pretty much lived in skirts and vest tops and I loved every minute of it.


This photo was taken after I had lost weight and now I look at it, I don’t look much smaller thank am now. I still love this dress and how basic it is. 

In fact, I think in all of these photos I look different. My body changes all the time and I’m thankful to now understand and truly believe that weight does not determine your worth, whether you’re more valued and most definitely not whether you’re loved. 

Be kind to yourself, love your body and remember that you’re not just your weight. 

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With love, Beth x 

50 Things I’m Grateful For

Throughout 2016 I’ve become to appreciate the little and big things in life a little bit more. For me this year hasn’t been the easiest and now it’s coming to an end I’ve realised that I’ve learned so much this year and loved each month and every challenge I’ve faced. The little things can often be the ones that make the most impact and I definitely agree, I’m so grateful for everything that I have in my life and I definitely think I take it for granted at times. Here are 50 thing that I’m grateful for, what are you grateful for? let me know!

  1. Movie nights
  2. Laughter
  3. Fresh air
  4. Books
  5. My siblings
  6. Education
  7. Friends
  8. Silence
  9. Good health
  10. The love and trust I have from Matt
  11. Loyalty
  12. Clean water
  13. Family
  14. Travel
  15. Culture
  16. Netflix
  17. Culture
  18. The ocean
  19. Forgiveness
  20. Childhood memories
  21. My comfort blanket (big red fluffy blanket that I can’t live without it)
  22. Free health care
  23. Road trips
  24. Someone asking about my day
  25. Smiles
  26. Cuddling
  27. Freedom
  28. Support
  29. Matthew Wright
  30. Imagination
  31. Technology
  32. Quality family time
  33. Money
  34. Colour
  35. Open mic nights
  36. Responsibility
  37. My parents marriage
  38. Oversized hoodies
  39. Body confidence
  40. My nan’s advice that guides me through every single life choice I make
  41. The banter between my friends and I
  42. Charity work
  43. Cold weather
  44. Kindness
  45. Love in general
  46. The ability to live everyday differently
  47. High fives
  48. My animals
  49. Milkshakes
  50. The efforts people make for you

These are 50 things that I’m grateful for. Some may not seem like they’re something to be grateful for, such as open mic nights but I love a good open mic night with friends, a few drinks and listening to people sing and appreciate the songs, the art people have created. Others may be totally obvious things to be grateful for, like love. The memories I have with my siblings will never be forgotten and the endless amount of support from my friends and family keeps me going through the shitty times. Matthew, my goodness. He is truly fantastic and I appreciate every cuddle, kiss and smile he gives me.  I couldn’t be more grateful for my parents marriage, they are a prime example of not giving up on someone regardless of the amount of times they mess up or annoy you, love is simply the best medicine.

Let me know what you guys are grateful for?

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