A Open Letter To My Younger Self..

Dear teenage Beth,

You did it. You will reach adulthood and the minor problems in your young, teenage life has not determined who you will become and what you will achieve. At the time, being a teenage is the harder thing in the world. What seems like the biggest problems eventually become smaller and smaller, before you realise they were so meaningless and will play no importance to your future.

Your best friends will change but you will always remember your first, the first best friend to go shopping with and who you turn to in times of need. Yes, you’ll find others who also mean so much to you but that first one, they will never be forgotten. It’s okay to move on, it’s all a part of living.

Your parents are trying their hardest and they don’t always get it right but that’s okay, you’ll learn to forgive and forget because they gave you life and more. They aren’t perfect, they’re strict and often have no idea about anything you have an interest in but they care for you and protect you in so many ways and simply want what’s best for you. Even if they don’t always know what that is.

You’re not fat. You never have been and you will definitely gain weight but  your mental health will change and you’ll realise that you’re healthy. Most of all, you are worthy of love, time and friendships and being a 5’2 curvy woman will not change whether you’re loved or attractive.

That boy you met in the club and made your night out fantastic.. Forget him. He’s not important. The boy you thought was your first love and you could never live without him.. Yeah, forget him too, he wasn’t your first love. You’ll meet someone eventually and they’ll change your whole world and show you exactly what it is to be loved and love. Everyday he will show you that you’re the best thing in the world and without you his life won’t ever be the same, hold on to it because it’s the best thing ever. Argue with him, love him, be funny and always appreciate the little things. You would be lost without him. 

However, your first real heartbreak will come and you will feel awful all the time. From what people have said though, you’ll move on but you’ll never forget him. That’s okay because I’m sure he won’t ever forget you too. 

Your health is the most important thing in the world so take a break. You’re stubborn and hardworking and whenever you put your mind to something you won’t stop until it’s achieved to above satisfaction. Your body is not a temple and it needs time to rest and relax from your very busy antics. You’re not iron man and you will only get worse if you’re not giving yourself time to enjoy the little thing and appreciate laying in bed all day reading a book. 

You done good kiddo. Enjoy your life, it’ll fly by. 

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With love, Beth x 

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Summer Nail Colours

Summer is here and although I don’t always pain my nails, when I do I like to pick seasonal shades. In the spring I tend to wear a lot of pastel colours and I do again for the summer but usually I like to include a lot of pinks and nudes throughout the summer more than most colours. This summer I’ve definitely mixed it up a bit and I’ve been reaching for shades that I never usually do. 

Buying nail varnish is normally the last thing I ever do. I rarely by nail varnishes, nails just aren’t my thing. I do like to update them once/maybe twice a year though because nail varnishes do expire just like all beauty products. I have several in my collection that I reach for throughout the summer and these are what I’ve been enjoying this year! 

Barry M Speedy Quick Dry shade in number 27 (the name has worn away, sorry!). It’s a pastel purple shad but looks beautiful and summer, especially gorgeous with a tan. 

Barry M Nail Paint in 272 Shocking Pink. It’s a very bright barbie pink and I’ve just enjoyed feeling a bit more brighter when the sun’s out. 

Barry M Nail Paint in 262 Bight Red. This is the brightest red nail varnish I’ve ever bought and worn and I bloody love it. I especially love wearing it when an all black dress and heels (not sure why, just feels glamorous). 

NAILSINC Gel Effect in Porchester Square. This is a very neutral nude shade and that’s basically all it is. I like the finish it gives and I find it’s long lasting and not that easy to chip. 

Missguided nail varnish in Misstique. A very dark teal shade but at the same time, in different angles does look bright. It’s got a lovely long-wearing finish and isn’t matte which is what I like most. 

What have been your favourites? 

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With love, Beth x 

Tanya Burr Cosmetics: My Escape Palette

Tanya Burr has been one of my favourite beauty youtubers since forever. She creates these beautiful, soft and effortless looks that at the so flattering. She truly is beautiful and I just find all of her tutorial so easy to follow. A few years ago when I found out she had released her own makeup line I jumped at the chance to try some of her products. I especially love the lipgloss in Lunch Date and the Galaxy Eye Palette but she is released a small collection recently and I totally fell in love with the My Escape palette. In particular, the kahki shade. So I bought it and tested it out by creating this smokey look using the quad and decided to give you my review! 

Firstly, the shades are gorgeous. It comes with 4 shades, 2 matte and 2 shimmery. The shades start with a shimmery beige (new perspective), a kahki green shimmer (wild jungle), a matte brown with grey undertones (tree tops) and a matte darker grey (master plan). 

Truthfully, the shades are lovely but I wish the beige was a white matte shade instead. I like to start my eye looks using a matte white or bone shade all over the lid for a base and new perspective just wouldn’t work since it has too much shimmer. It’s a lovely inner corner highlight but I like to use just one palette that I can create easy and different looks with, but I had to dip into another palette for a matte. 

I also like to start with a lighter transition shade and this palette doesn’t have that. I ended up using the Too Faced Sweet Peach palette for a long transition shade before going back into the Tanya Burr palette with tree tops. 


I started with a bone shade across the lid to set down the concealer. I went in with a pale pink toned shad in the crease and then packed on wild jungle (kahki shade) across the lid. I used tree tops in the crease and only went half way across, mainly focusing on the outer corner and constantly building it. I used clean brushes to continue to blend and then went back in with wild jungle to intensify the colour. I finished with using master plan on the outta corner and swiping it along the lower lash line. 


The shadows are pigmented and incredibly buildable. They do have massive fall-out though so I recommend doing the eye look first as it’s easier to clean up. However, this palette is wonderful and the price is outstanding (£5.99 in Superdrug and on Feel Unique). I recommend this palette highly and I’m eager to test more of her products. 

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With love, Beth x 

L’Oreal True Match 

I’ve been testing out the L’Oreal True Match foundation for a few weeks now and I totally forgot how good of a foundation it actually was. I was using this religiously a few years ago and I found other products and never returned to it. 


I bought mine from Superdrug for £9.99 and I think the best thing about this foundation is the massive amount of shades that are available. It’s huge! It’s the widest selection of shades that I’ve seen in the drugstore and it ranges for the palest of skin to the darkest. It’s incredible and I think it’s so good of L’Oreal for bringing it to the drugstore. 

This foundation works so well for a variety of different skin types. I have combination skin and it doesn’t wear away on my oily skin and doesn’t look cakey on my dry skin. It’s extremely long wearing and for that I think it’s totally worth the money. I find that my creams and powders just glide on and I’m an avid fan of this product. 

I kinda knew I would love it again since I really enjoyed the L’Oreal Cushion foundation so much and this really reminded me of how good the L’Oreal foundations actually are. 

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With love, Beth x 

Birchbox Misses

Since September I have been purchasing a monthly beauty subscription that I’ve really been enjoying, although I’ve not enjoyed every single product. Some of them I’ve loved and I’ll be likely to repurchase but others just didn’t work for me and my skin, which is totally OK. 

The BirchBox is £12.95 a month which includes delivery and you receive 5 products. Sometimes you get 1 or 2 full sized samples and other times you don’t. They come in the most gorgeous draw boxes that I love and wish I had kept most of them since they’re so cute. I’ve loved receiving my BirchBox each month and I often forget about it so it’s like a gift to myself. 

With that in mind, I didn’t like every single product that I’ve received. Most of them I’ve enjoyed and like I said, will probably repurchase for full sample. However, there are 5 particular products that I don’t really care for as they haven’t cooperated with me. 

I’m a fan of colour correcting and when I received the NIP+Fab colour corrector in the yellow shade I was excited to try it. I tried it and I could not have been more disappointed. I used it under my foundation and my foundation looked cakey all day. It wasn’t pretty and due to this, I won’t ever purchase a NIP+Fab colour corrector through absolute fear. 

I cant remember which month but I received a sample trio of the POP Beauty eyeshadows. I had never heard of this brand before so I gave it a go and it just didn’t do anything for me. The shadows weren’t anything special and the trio had all shimmery shades. It includes a shimmery dark brown which I would have used to smoke out but it just was too shimmery. It also includes a shimmery pink shade and a shimmery neutral shade. Like I said, they just didn’t do anything for me and I had no feelings towards it at all. 

In a recent box we got to choose a full sample size and I picked the Mannakadar beauty powder. I think this was priced crazily expensive, something like £27! It’s the smallest product I’ve ever seen. Normally, powders are a fair size and worth the money. This is a small pan which actually looks like an eyeshadow. This is probably the bit that disappointed me the most. Also, the product wasn’t good at all. Again, it made my base look cakey and I wouldn’t recommend using this under the eyes at all. 

Now, these next two products are fairly similar. I have the Amika: Bombshell Blowout Spray and the Beauty Protector protector and detangle spray. I do like to use products in my hair when I blowdry it just to make it look nicer and a more fresh but these products do nothing for my hair at all and it’s as simple as that. I don’t think they’re good or bad I just don’t think they do anything to my hair but they might do something to someone else’s. They smell good though! 

Check out my posts on my BirchBoxes using the links below: 

September 

October 

November

December 

January 

February 

March

April 

May

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With love, Beth x 

 

Book Review: When We Collided

I recently come across a new author to me, named Emery Lord. I purchase two of three books that she has published, When We Collided was the first I read. 
I was in the mood to read lovey-dovey, romantic novels and after reading the first chapter of both books and the back of the book, I knew that this would be a good read. Let’s get to the point, it didn’t fail me & I really enjoyed this book. 
Jonah and his family had experienced the dreadful loss of his father and never thought he would feel normal again. Vivi had moved to his home town for the summer with her artist mother in hopes to start experiencing the world in a way she’s always wanted too, happy. Never did they both know that, during the summer they would experience their first love that consumed them. 

It’s been months that I have come across a book that I’ve become obsessed with. This one really did it for me, I read this during the summer when I had been missing Matt so much and it just helped me to relive the happy memories and all of the loving feelings I have for him.

I especially liked that the stigma of mental health and death hadn’t been ignored and instead, totally emphasised in the most powerful and thoughtful way. Emery hadn’t ignored the fact that people have difficulties regardless of what they are and she noticed that all problems and life changing events should be recognised. 

The story was beautiful and full of love between two teenagers that eventually realised how to love themselves again. 

With love, Beth x 

What’s Up, Buttercup?

During the past 5 weeks a lot of things have happened but most importantly of all, I received my university classification and I realised I have to get my shit together. 

I graduated Aberystwyth University with a upper second class honours degree in Childhood Studies BA Hons (2:1). This is a huge achievement that I’m extremely proud of, in fact I can’t believe it’s happened. I’ve spent the last 3 years working so incredibly hard to achieve this degree and I never thought I would achieve the grade that I did, let alone have a first in my dissertation. 

However, nobody prepares you to finish university and enter the real world and become a proper adult. I honestly believe that there should be a third year module called How to Adult. This should be on all higher education courses. 

So, I had decisions to make. To move home, find a full time job and make a start on adulting. Or another option, stay in university and do a Masters of Arts degree. Well, after serious consideration I’m prepared for 2 more years in university to study a MA degree in Equality and Diversity in Society. 

Only three years ago I was preparing to study my first degree, now I’m preparing to move to a new town and study my next. Am I ready to start adulting? Absolutely not. Do I have to do it anyway? Absolutely, just throw myself in the deep end and pray that I can swim. 

MA degrees are funded differently and I don’t have student finance to pay my tuition fees for me now. Instead, I’ll receive a 10,000 loan for the 2 year period and £6000 of that will be spent on the course. Therefore I need a job with plenty of hours and a decent pay to fund my lifestyle and bills. It’ll be hard yes, but I’m so looking forward to a fresh start and a change in lifestyle. 

Onto the next adventure!